Dear Editor,
A pastor, not a punchbag:
I am a pastor, not a punchbag for your pain.
Or had you forgotten that I am human too?
I can see it can help to have someone to blame,
but is this actually about me or more about you?
Your mumblings became grumblings when life became harder.
I’m so sorry – it really does hurt me to see you suffer.
Truly, I seek your best, even though you always know ‘better’;
I want you to rest in the embrace of the World’s Greatest Lover.
You say my preaching lacks depth and isn’t exegetical;
others tell me it’s too rich and rigidly Scriptural.
You say I’m detached, distant and even disinterested;
others tell me I’m inappropriately, emotionally over-invested.
There are moments when I’m very tempted to quit.
Did you know that? I expect not; perhaps you’d be happier if I did.
I was actually signed off work with depression by my GP.
But I didn’t dare take it, fearing more criticism against me.
I soldier on (calling not done) to be a good pastor,
only to fail and inevitably falter;
for only God can be worshipped at this altar –
that you desire me to die on for you.
Do you know that I am not your Saviour?
I write in support of unfairly treated pastors,
Yes, some have been abusive and done much wrong,
but others are victims of proud church members;
wounded by the very community to which they also belong.
Selah.
Pastor Anon
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